September – One Day at a Time

I write something nearly every day. I’ve kept a journal since the fall of 1989. For years I’ve wanted to join the group of daily bloggers, but my problem is I lack discipline. Not just discipline in writing and publishing, but discipline in all kinds of habits.

Even if its gibberish, I’m going to put something onto this site every day for September. If I don’t do it now, when do I think it’s going to happen? It’s not like I feel like I need to do it… this is something I actually want to do. Just like I want to ride my bike every day. Just like I want to meditate every day. Just like I want to read every day. The list goes on. I’m going to do it this month, and this is Day 1.

Today’s reading from Melody Beattie’s The Language of Letting Go had to do with patience. “… some things take time. Sometimes, we have lessons to learn first, lessons that prepare us so we can accept the good we deserve. Be patient. Relax and trust. Let go.”

I’ve been working on letting go of so many blockades in my life for nearly 9 months on a daily basis, and in so many cases its been incredibly helpful and freeing. But part of letting go is simply accepting the fact that I’ll never be perfect at the things I most want to do. Just because I’m imperfect (and even less) at activities I actually gain pleasure and fulfillment from doing doesn’t mean I should just wait until some time in the future when the stars align a little better than they are today.

In fact, the stars are always in the same place, they are always aligned, so the time is now.